There are always so many precious moments as parents, and I realise many of them are age and stage appropriate. Many are fleeting, many are replaced, and many are shifting.
There have been so many moments this holiday that I just want to freeze and make sure they never cease. From you spontaneously telling me you love me throughout the day, to getting out your bed, coming downstairs and giving me a tight hug goodnight because you forgot, these are the moments that make me grateful and so so happy.
The other night, we had so much fun in the garden. There were piggy-back rides, sprints, races where we both cheated, and my best – rolling down the embankment.
I don’t think I’ve rolled down a hill since I was a child, and I giggled in dizziness and glee as I rolled down the hill. I was a bit uneasy to go down, thinking I was too old and too out of roll-down practice, but you encouraged me, and I’m so glad you did. Just that morning, at our first Secret Sunrise session, we adults were reminded to see the world as if we were kids, and that’s another reason I was propelled to well, propel down that hill.
When will the hills, hugs and “I love yous” become tired or old? When will I forget to see the world through your eyes? When will our sprint races stop becoming fun? And what will replace all of this… another type of fun or closeness, or distance/separation?
These questions and the fear of “losing” you make me value these moments. I realise I can’t clutch onto them forever, or try halt your natural path. What I will do is treasure the value of now, soak in the hugs, and be lifted with every “I love you”. I hope that for as long as we’re keen and able, we will continue to roll those downhills.
I love you,
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