Sometimes, the only way out is through

August 18, 2014

Dear Max

For the last few weeks I’ve been in a space where I’d rather sleep than run, where my goals have become a bit hazy, and where every picture and mirror reflection of myself makes me cringe, delete or turn away.

And every week I bore myself with the same declarations: “I really need to start running regularly”, “I need to get on track with my eating”, “I need to drink more water because my skin looks horrendous”, and “I really need to make some calls to push for some more work”. If I was listening to myself, I would probably say “Then just do all those things! Stop bleating about it. You’re irritating the crap out of me.”

And that’s pretty much what I did. I listened to myself. It was either that or deafen myself with my unfulfilled intentions. So now, I have an eating plan, and after about five weeks of an average of one difficult run a week, I ran a 21km race yesterday. I realised that the only way out this rut is through, and diving into a race unfit was the best way to get my confidence up, and to hopefully find my stride.

I used to be so good at setting a goal, or deciding I wanted to try achieve something, and just doing it. I’m not sure when I lost that ability, but I’m hoping to be reunited with that part of me soon. It’s either that, or more whining, and come to think of it, wining too.

Aside from my broken-record rantings, I’ve had a cool time of inspiring events and fun and pampering blogger do’s. Last week I attended an amazing education week called Sasol Techno X, which is a week-long and hands-on maths, science and tech expo. I broke a nail at a fun tenpin bowling on Saturday, and enjoyed lunch, bubbly and treats at a bloggers’ social.

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And if there’s anything to fuel me for spring, it’s these new running shoes. Mine are getting worn, so it was time. I know I’ve said it before, but I’m hoping to be on a new footing soon.

xMom

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4 Comments

  • MeeA

    Stunning new shoes – may you enjoy many happy running days in them!
    Good on you for getting your arse in gear; I sort of semi started last week, too but then the weekend came and threw a spanner in my works again. Also, not having had enough sleep last night didn’t help my chances of getting out of bed this morning…
    So very jealous of all you lucky fish who got to go to the HelloBloggers do!

    August 18, 2014 at 2:07 pm Reply
    • Tanya Kovarsky

      Thanks MeeA! Hope you get enough sleep, and that you get on track 🙂

      August 18, 2014 at 2:16 pm Reply
  • Claudz

    Those shoes are awesome! I actually ignored all social media due to serious jealousy on Saturday – looked like a great event.
    nice that you’re back on track. I get inspired by all your running pics on Insta

    August 18, 2014 at 2:58 pm Reply
    • Tanya Kovarsky

      Thanks hun!

      September 23, 2014 at 8:48 am Reply

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