It seems that whichever spiritual practitioner I go to, they all say the same thing to me: that I’m quite closed, and don’t allow myself to feel.
This time the sentiment, or rather sense, came from a reiki master and BodyTalk practitioner Brent Feinberg. My Twitter friend Melanie Minnaar (hi Mel!) introduced me to him, and since I like alternative treatments, and can do with any help to unwind/balance/release, I was keen to go.
Reiki means “laying on of hands”, and the hands are used to channel energy and heal. I always say this, but one of the best things about reiki is not being touched. I quite like being clothed and not having my “comfort zone” broken. Brent aslo did some BodyTalk, which aims to “resynchronise” the body’s energy systems.
During my hour, I relaxed, went over about a dozen to-do lists in my head, but mostly relaxed. I had weird “rumblings” in my stomach, not the gas type (seriously!), but rather an unleashing kind. And then Brent, like all the others, said that I’m holding back so much emotion, and for some reason that made me sad. And I’m beginning to think that maybe “I’m fine” isn’t going to cut it anymore. That maybe it’s okay to be emotional, and show it too. Brent also said I should do art as a way to express myself.
These sessions are good, and hopefully I can learn from them.
BTW, today is the second day you’re away at the beach. I’m missing you hugely. I’m thinking of setting up an Advent-type calendar to count down to your return, made up of Cadbury’s Bubbly and Patron shots perhaps?
Love you and miss you,
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