Your mom is blue

April 10, 2012

Dear Max

Your mom is blue. Not in the unhappy sense, but rather, she has joined the blue number club at Two Oceans for having run 10 Two Oceans.

I thought I’d have an awesome run, but it mostly sucked. My head, heart and body weren’t really in it, and tried as I did to picture that finish line and the blue number tent, I really couldn’t. It rained and it was windy, and I giggled a lot because it was quite a comedic scene – runners sloshing around with the Cape rain falling sideways and hard, and holding their caps against the wind. But as the rain got stronger, my sense of humour waned, and my legs got weaker. And I slogged through, wanting to throw in the towel and my shoes. But I dug deep to finish with just four minutes to spare – the closest I’ve ever come to not finishing (which says a lot about my running mind and legs at the moment).

And for every truck, digger and crane I saw on the route, I thought of you. For every baby and toddler I saw bundled up in prams and in their parents’ arms, I yearned to be with you. And boy, I missed you. You apparently had a great weekend though – playing with Sisi and her cousins, going for a ride with your dad in a real fire truck, and looking at all kinds of vehicles on my your iPad, which I left at home for you because I couldn’t bear the tears which started to brew as I was leaving home with it.

I’m not sure where this leaves me and my running shoes. Part of me is done running long distance for now, another part might hurt more on June 3 when I’m at home watching Comrades on TV instead of running it.

 

xBlue Mom

 

 

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3 Comments

  • Yashmitha Padayachee

    oh mamma… reading your second paragraph makes me thibnk of every second i have to spend away from my Kivi . today was his first day back at creche after a glorious eater break . he’s such a little soldier, no tears wlaked into school like a real champ… now im counting down the hours till im home :0 … also we’ll be doing a family trip to CPT end of this month it will be Kivis first flight … so excited 🙂 tc 🙂

    April 10, 2012 at 10:09 am Reply
  • MeeA

    Well done for running & finishing!
    I used to run “long distance” as a kid in school and was pretty good at it. But then a personal incident one Friday afternoon and a subsequent altercation with the school principal caused me to flip him off and have my weekend privileges revoked just before I was set to run for provincial colours and I refused to represent the school in that race. I never ran again.

    I’ve been following all the twitter-runner-moms’ talk about running and marathons and have been thinking hard about putting on a pair of running shoes again, so I sincerely hope you’re not about to give it up – I’m going to need all the encouragement I can get! 🙂

    April 10, 2012 at 11:03 am Reply
  • Karen at MomAgain@40

    Congrats on completing it!
    Sorry to hear that it’s the end… But know you have run much more than most of us can claim!

    April 11, 2012 at 2:40 pm Reply
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